And I wished we were all alone So I could know your hands, and know your soul All I want is to come in from cold You look to my head but my heart’s so old But it’s clear to me you’re on the run I wish I could see who you’re running from And this lure sits on my aching tongue Yeah I still believe I can be someone (chorus) So go ahead and take me by the hand We’ll make it if we both learn how to see We’ll leave this place and find another land Teach me what you know, and I’ll teach myself how to be For so long this heart’s been on it’s own But it never shakes like these ancient bones I don’t need these walls I'm not alone Got my friends and family they’re my home I swore I’d never fall that hard again I said I’d never let somebody else in And then you had to go and smile at me Guess I was wrong, and now I'm falling again And hear me out, you know I don’t wanna leave But I would in second if you asked me Because darling you’ve got more of a pull on me Than the tide’s got on the sea [chorus] First few weeks home and I just feel so out of place The town that I grew up in’s not the same Everyone says I'm the difference Maybe they’re right, and I'm the one that’s changed And I know that it’s been hard this year And it’s quickly becoming clear That the coming winter could be colder than the last But at least most of my friends are here [chorus]

(chorus) I know that I’m worthless I know that I’m fucked up, Kind of an asshole, I guess I deserve this I know that I do But everything I am Everything I say, Everything I do, I’d give it all up then Give it all up for you But fuck this Nobody deserves this I’m full of shit And it’s all on the surface I can’t believe I ever thought that I might’ve had a chance And the man who knows everything Will write on the wall The words I will never Say to anyone But no one will seem them Cause he writes them just for me And I don’t believe in anything much at all And maybe that’s why I can never stand quite as tall As you know I’d like to Well of course I liked you And you were the one I thought might be The one who could possible tolerate me But I'm not worth you, maybe another time, maybe another world Maybe another me, maybe another girl [chorus] If she’s happy I'm happy I shout at myself This would all get better if I could get the fuck out But I'm so fucking selfish I hate myself I fuck up everything I try I fuck up everything I try So I will not say a word My lips are shut, my mouth secure I fuck up everything I try I fuck up everything I try So I will not say a word My lips are shut, my mouth secure The only way for me to cope Is to distract myself the only way I know The only way I know It’s never helped before I'm a fucking liar I don’t fucking care I wish I was somewhere But I don’t know where Maybe in your arms But that’s not ever gonna be I close my eyes and wish these last few months were all in my head [chorus] I said it takes a little more Than a pretty girl These days To keep me up at night But I guess that just wasn’t quite true I guess I didn’t think of you [chorus]

You took my hand, and of course I didn’t mind I hoped that you’d hold it, till the end of the night Thought I saw your heart, I bet you could’ve seen mine From a mile away, beating out of time So give me a moment, I’d like to ask you to dance I hope that you’ll notice, and give me a chance With your hand in my own, feels like a knife at my throat You make me feel like I can hardly stand (chorus) I’ll take it on the chin If you don’t give a shit about me That’s ok I'm fine I'm always asking my friend Why he writes so many love songs Well now I know why It’s the way your hair smells when you lean over me It’s the way your eyes shine all the time I’ve spent months here asking my friend Why he writes so many love songs But now I know why I know why But I shouldn’t have waited till the end of the year Like a dumbass I fucked up, the instructions weren’t clear All I want to do is talk with you, laugh at kids drinking beer I should say something while we’re both here But I won’t cause I fear What you’ll say I wish I could be one of those kids drinking beer That night I wanted you to stick around I would’ve stayed there forever, would have slept on that couch We were close enough you didn’t have to speak so loud But when you laughed with me I loved the sound when you laughed with me I loved the sound [chorus] Because when you laughed with me I loved the sound

(chorus) your head next to mine your heart on my mind there's nothing we can't be tonight living life by starlight ever since i was a young kid living in the burbs moved here from california, missed my friends and the surf spent a couple years depressed, I did not know which was worse living like i was or dying alone, hit the dirt so i hit the dirt with the soles of my feet tires of my bike gave me food for my soul to eat flying every night given wings by the books i used to read fixed myself, gave me something i could keep and damn, i was head over heels that summer you and i, side by side one another you and i, we were worthwhile lovers your backyard every night, staring at the stars above us on your trampoline where nobody could see us dreaming of a day when a cap and gown would free us teenagers wishing that we just knew how to be us but tonight, we're alive, just because [chorus] 18, driving like i knew i couldnt die on those long road trips alone, every single night sing along to those songs that i know saved my life swore to myself that one day the words on the radio would be mine cause music's always been there for me every single time i needed it, i'll always have it right by my side my guitar in my hand, and i got home on my mind put my pen to the paper and let the ink do the crying i've been fighting my demons and everything that i've feared it hasn't always been easy i've struggle all of these years but these words are my shield, my pen's my sword and my spear i might never reach the top but shit it's keeping me here staying here isn't easy but i guess i'm sticking around i guess it might just be worth it to keep my feet on the ground there's been months where i lose hope, but it's always been found i've tried to capture that feeling and now i'm writing it down [chorus] i live my life by the microphone i write my words then i scream my poems music behind the lines i write i rhyme these words together till i free my soul i surprise y'all when i'm not a standard rapper i'm a godiva in a hersheys wrapper yeah my flow's not great, my lips are chapped, sure but my words are from the heart you can be damn sure i'm young, yeah, and i'm dumb, damn and i fuck up most of my plans but at the end of the day, i really need this, man only music stops these shaking hands this notebook is my only friend on the days i cannot see the end of this road i'm on, the fordham one, with the setting sun up in my eyes, i'm gone [chorus] and now im alone again i know im not my only friend we're here until the end and we're not broken, just bent

The memories we made here won't just be gone with us They'll live inside these walls as well When we go It was sunny yesterday and now I feel a little bit of a drizzle on my skin It's getting cold And I'll miss this place with all my heart When I feel like I'm falling apart I'll remember your smile and your eyes And I'll remember that kid in his tights The friends I hope I'll never leave behind Cause we're forever you and I When the people I love most in this world Live in my house For a year or so I get so spoiled I hate not knowing When I'll see them again It's killing me, soon I'll be dead But it doesn't matter How it ends It matters that it happened We are all of us visitors In this place So tell me your stories again While we have time and space You know that we are perfection More than the sum of our parts As though by some constant convention In, in our hearts So maybe this place will change And so will we But even if nothing's the same We will still be

Can I listen to myself alone now My mind is like a revolving door But if everything works out the way it should And I’m alone again once more Well I’ll be happy Because I need to show myself That I'm ok being alone That it maybe even helps (chorus) My friends and I we all have trouble sleeping And yeah we know that one day we will be alright But until that day we all have trouble sleeping So stay awake with me tonight We all know the pills don’t work No the medicine you feed us is all expired So tell us again how you know what’s best for us Better than we do, and I’ll call you a liar Our grandparents were called the best and the brightest The greatest generation, why can’t these new kids measure up Millennials, we’re lazy and we don’t give a shit They push us down but they can’t keep us from getting up But despite everything I guess we’re doing ok We know we can fix all of this some day It’s bleak now but at least we’ve got each other It’s a painful road but at least we know the way [chorus] This life leaves tattoos on our bodies, every part I call them tattoos cause I hate to call them scars And I know this world will leave us broke and battered But though our skin is pierced it can never reach our hearts Though our skin is pierced, it can never reach our hearts I was outside For a long time Last night Tomorrow I’ll do it again (3x) I was outside For a long time Last night 'cause it's better than failing at sleeping [chorus]